Especially when you are not supposed to be someone who you really are! I have lived with people who are really elder to me, all my life...! Okay, I know my life may be just 16 and a half years, but for me it is my whole life... right? My mom, dad, brother, friends, batch mates...simply everyone. I didnt really regret it. In fact people whom I met later would tell me that I talk really differently than what normally people of my age would, and that I dont look like I am sixteen, and that would flatter me so much. But when I look more than sixteen, think more than sixteen, talk much better than sixteen, then why am I only sixteen?!?!
Okay so, last week I told mom, I wanted to get myself inked. And after a lot of troubles of telling her how awesome it would be, She ACTUALLY AGREED! So then I start looking at designs and stuff, and where can I get it done and all the questions related to it, and suddenly I come up to this paragraph which says, that I had to be an adult to get a tattoo. My mom, unfortunately was sitting right besides me, and was delighted to hear the news, and I on the other hand was having the exact opposite emotions... I was sooooo frustrated... I had been planning this for months!
I dont want to be sixteen...! Why doesnt this time budge faster? I want to get myself a tattoo! I want to roam alone...! I want to earn so that I can spend! I want to do so much.
It might just seem ironic to someone reading this, but to me... Its such a pain.
Last night I was so irritated and wanted to talk out about this to someone, which I really cant, so searched my diary... But somehow I seem to have lost it. So decided to start blogging. And well this seems to be cool, though I dont understand a lot of concepts here. But will find out soon.
The worst thing about me, is when something troubles me, I just cant concentrate on things other than that thought, which is terribly wrong. I feel so sad so many times and all I do about it is, think over it all the more, listen to sad songs mostly related to the problem, and suffer more. I am super hesitant, and dont even like to go to the counter at McDonald's and order myself something. I know its not hard, and I have done things like these, but I simply feel hesitant, or may be strange or should I say awkward. Trying to change stuff. Hope things go fine...
