So, what's exactly on my mind today? Well, its my ex boyfriend's birthday today. It just doesnt feel like its been a year since we went out. That probably was one of the best days I've spent with him happily. I remember dressing up a day before like it was my own birthday since I thought we wouldn't be meeting on the birthday since he would be working. The next day I met him in the evening looking like well, ummm what he called me all the time- a kid. It was one of those few days where Arjun was really happy.
My break-up I planned for over a month ago, but things were still bad. I mean, I remember thinking constantly about him, all the time, dreaming of him... Probably just going insane. He was a matured man. He wanted me to be, what I want my current boyfriend to be. I guess he wanted me to care more. I am still probably a kid. And I am not really ashamed of it, just a bit restless.
Sol, is the kind of guy who is extremely giving when he is in the mood. Everyone's the same. First going out of the way to help, now just wanting me to get out of the way. I just dont understand why do people get married, is it the same reason that we have to die after we live? I guess I should start living then.
So what else is up? Well, I've started being jealous of every other thing that I dont have and others do. And its sort of a necessity to me, not a luxury. So as usual I have been crying. What I miss, is the happiness I used to have, when I knew I had nothing but the fact that I was free, right after 3rd of December last year. Guess I'll move on in a while.
Been watching 'Two and a half men' a lot lately. And man it is pure fun! :D
I wish I was rich and had a house by the beach (This line cracks my mum all up everytime I say it :P). I also want to be a man with lots of women around and live a lavish lifestyle. I've started wanting to eat, like really, EAT. Also am craving for a McSpicy Chicken since like a week, but mum says I got to wait till Navratri is over. Why does she make me do this when I dont even believe in it? I just do it because I respect her, and if thats what makes her happy, I dont mind :)
I miss Pranav. I normally dont understand what to talk to him when mom calls him up. Its just awkward but I still really miss him and I wish he was still living with us. I wish my family was all that it used to be, happy, content, sweet, united. Now its just, I want this I want that. Why do we have families when eventually people are going to leave each other? The only person I consider family is mom. I've written a lot of rubbish today. But thats on my mind. So be it rubbish, but I've got to get it out somehow :P
My break-up I planned for over a month ago, but things were still bad. I mean, I remember thinking constantly about him, all the time, dreaming of him... Probably just going insane. He was a matured man. He wanted me to be, what I want my current boyfriend to be. I guess he wanted me to care more. I am still probably a kid. And I am not really ashamed of it, just a bit restless.
Sol, is the kind of guy who is extremely giving when he is in the mood. Everyone's the same. First going out of the way to help, now just wanting me to get out of the way. I just dont understand why do people get married, is it the same reason that we have to die after we live? I guess I should start living then.
So what else is up? Well, I've started being jealous of every other thing that I dont have and others do. And its sort of a necessity to me, not a luxury. So as usual I have been crying. What I miss, is the happiness I used to have, when I knew I had nothing but the fact that I was free, right after 3rd of December last year. Guess I'll move on in a while.
Been watching 'Two and a half men' a lot lately. And man it is pure fun! :D
I wish I was rich and had a house by the beach (This line cracks my mum all up everytime I say it :P). I also want to be a man with lots of women around and live a lavish lifestyle. I've started wanting to eat, like really, EAT. Also am craving for a McSpicy Chicken since like a week, but mum says I got to wait till Navratri is over. Why does she make me do this when I dont even believe in it? I just do it because I respect her, and if thats what makes her happy, I dont mind :)
I miss Pranav. I normally dont understand what to talk to him when mom calls him up. Its just awkward but I still really miss him and I wish he was still living with us. I wish my family was all that it used to be, happy, content, sweet, united. Now its just, I want this I want that. Why do we have families when eventually people are going to leave each other? The only person I consider family is mom. I've written a lot of rubbish today. But thats on my mind. So be it rubbish, but I've got to get it out somehow :P
