EVANESCENCE - My immortal.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
 Why cant you be with me forever? I'd miss you. I'd miss the silly fights. I'll miss the confusion, I'll miss the tears, I'll miss the once in a blue moon smiles. I'll miss the tension. I'll miss you.
May be you dont want us together. Why are you giving up on me? I know I've been bad, I am sorry, I'll be a good girl. But I know, you dont want to be there. Why held on to me? Why gave me so much that now I cant let go? And now, I wish you would either hold on or let go. So I know if I am lucky, or may be dead.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I am sorry...! I am really so sorry. Why did u lead me on, when you knew that we werent meant to be? Why made me so happy at times that I would forget what being unhappy was, and why made me so worried that I would forget what being happy was? Made me dance on the streets, Those beautiful times when you were all mine. When I knew nothing could go wrong if you're besides me. When just looking at your smile made me so happy, that I can still sacrifice anything and everything for it. 
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You'll always have all of me. I know I am not even needed in your life. May be I was always wrong. I've loved you with all my heart... And yet you felt like you couldnt trust me. Sorry for ruining it. For being the idiot. I am sorry I could never wipe your tears away, I did try all that I could.
You used to captivate me By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
I loved that beautiful smile of yours, and the laughter. I loved that since the first time I heard you. You would be so happy I would get attracted to you so easily. And you would be so full of things that would make me happy. And suddenly, may be because of me, you're all dull, angry, upset. May be I shouldn't have answered your call that night. So that you'd be happy forever.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I just dont know, just cant figure out why, you hate me so much, that you're giving up on me. Sometimes when things would go wrong, I would just want to end the fight, and you'd somehow wouldn't conclude it. And I felt like this terrible ache in my heart wishing that I could make you happier. May be you'd feel that making you happy is not what I always thought of.... and that I would want to be happy. Yes, I do. But I would only be happy if you'd be. Which is complex, and I wished you would understand. 
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
I just wish that you could be the guy that I met the first day. The first day I met you, you looked at me as if you really wanted me. You would talk to me so beautifully. As if you didnt want me to think anything else. And you would say such cute things. Talk to me like you wanted me forever... Then, you were the guy who wouldnt want to talk on phone. Wouldnt want to express himself. Wouldnt want to say that he loved me. Wouldnt want me to be attached. Wouldnt be that same guy who would send me messages three pages long, and the guy who would now send messages with hardly five words. I dont know if you've felt lonely. But I do.
I get the feeling that you've been hating me. Doing small trivial things. Even for being there. I am sorry. I love you.